I’ve taken 2 days and a night off of the speech.  Kind of.  I had a life coaching session with Micaela Pennell today and everything we are working on is all relevant to the speech and my life.  It is such a tremendous gift to have the additional perspective on what I am trying to accomplish and why.   I took the night off to watch a movie and give myself some room to see better.  Tomorrow I will make the changes this speech needs knowing what my own heart needs to make sure it is truth spoken with tremendous love.  I feel like the gel wants to set now.

I have had to start a separate journal to write about how everything, my spiritual journey, my emotional healing, friendship, speaking, and family is being woven together so beautifully and miraculously by our Creator.  When I step back and look at it I am in complete awe at the complex beauty yet utter simplicity of this tapestry.  There are some days more than others that you can truly appreciate the handiwork of God and today was one of those days.

Micaela’s words resonated like a bell and when I heard my husband repeating them, not having known what she had said, and then going an extra mile giving me a suggestion that could alter my life, the speech, and the way I look at and feel about things, well, let me just say that if this stuff were happening to you and you weren’t sure about a higher power….   this stuff might change your mind.  God’s hand is all over this and it gives me SUCH comfort to let Him guide me with the sweet and quiet confidence of knowing that I am loved by Him and that He is taking me Somewhere.

When this year is over, I’m going to bring it all together, to write about all of this, all that’s going on.  I’m saving it all and I know it will prove to be a fascinating read because it’s the work of God, not me.

I feel very excited and happy today.  I feel hopeful.  I feel loved.   I feel protected even in my emotional nakedness.  What a tremendous relief!  I thank God for all of these things.  And I thank Him for the hard stuff too, the stuff that has hurt like hell because He has used that as well and will continue to do so.

I have one more very big step to take to make myself certain that I am doing the right thing.  I need to ask one very important person for their blessing about this speech.  If they can give me this blessing, I will be truly free to make the biggest leap I have ever taken.  If they can’t, I will have to take the leap anyway.  And pray for wings.

my favourite and most rare mode of travel

my favourite and most rare mode of travel

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